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Thursday, August 27, 2009
This semester has got to be the most difficult study-wise for as long as I've been at Monash.
I have never felt so demotivated in my whole time here. I have two free days every week and I'm only taking 3 units instead of the usual 4, yet I feel like I have not been able to catch up with most of what I've learnt. I just can't grasp some things.
It's actually come to a point where I've started thinking, "what if I just try to maintain a 60% average this semester?" and I actually calculated my marks and since my average would still be a Distinction, I really wouldn't mind getting all credits this semester.
I feel like I just want to cry. And I have to send in assignments practically every week.
I can understand now why my first-year lecturer kept on warning us about how difficult third year was gonna be.
Since I got through past semesters quite well, I just never thought that this semester was going to be THAT difficult.
When Liyana and I were ranting about this last night, I almost burst out crying cause I don't understand why I just can't seem to get anything inside my head now.
My only saving grace right now is that I'm still on track with one of the units.
I hate this helpless feeling so much. And I hate myself for being so ambitious sometimes.
Screw my pride. I just wanna survive this semester.
I have never felt so demotivated in my whole time here. I have two free days every week and I'm only taking 3 units instead of the usual 4, yet I feel like I have not been able to catch up with most of what I've learnt. I just can't grasp some things.
It's actually come to a point where I've started thinking, "what if I just try to maintain a 60% average this semester?" and I actually calculated my marks and since my average would still be a Distinction, I really wouldn't mind getting all credits this semester.
I feel like I just want to cry. And I have to send in assignments practically every week.
I can understand now why my first-year lecturer kept on warning us about how difficult third year was gonna be.
Since I got through past semesters quite well, I just never thought that this semester was going to be THAT difficult.
When Liyana and I were ranting about this last night, I almost burst out crying cause I don't understand why I just can't seem to get anything inside my head now.
My only saving grace right now is that I'm still on track with one of the units.
I hate this helpless feeling so much. And I hate myself for being so ambitious sometimes.
Screw my pride. I just wanna survive this semester.
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